I’m just randomly writing this one in such a wretched mood. I used up the whole day yesterday preparing for the quiz. Regardless of all my stiff n firm efforts, I never make it up to 100 %. Just felt like being left alone right after the quiz. When I finally reached my room, I dug through my desk until I found my headphones. I planned to listen to some good music so picked up Michael Jackson’s cd as he used a little too bass and shrieking for my taste. I put on the headphones; hit play, turned up the volume until it hurt my ear and popped into my place. I closed my eyes but light still intruded so covered ‘em with my right hand.
I started concentrating very carefully on the music trying to understand the lyrics, to unravel drum patterns. I kept on switching the songs. It really worked!! The shattering beats made it impossible for me to think- which was the whole purpose of the exercise. After sometime, I became conscious of my singing-along-with-the songs. I was so much indulged that I could clearly distinguish each beat of music in each song. Finally when I switched to this one “Ehsan tera hoga mujhper” I loved it and especially when this part comes…
Tum ne mujhko hasna sikhaya
Rone to hongay ro leingay ab
Anso ka humare ghum na kero
Wo behtay hain to behne do
Chahe bena do chahe mita do
Mer bhi gaye to deingay duyaien
Urh urh k kahegee khak sanam
Ye dard-e-muhabbat sehne do..
Ehsan tera hoga mujhper
Dil chahta hai to kehen do
Mujhe tumse muhabbat ho gayi hai
Mujhe palkon ki chaown main rehne do.
“it made me sing too… I missed nana abu very much. I remember him listening to this track when I was little. ”
<It’s a song of 50s or 60s >
Second one I liked the most for today was Westlife’s “If I let you go”. Such a beautiful song!! Few others were, “ankhon k sagher” by fuzon, “kuch is tarah and pass aya kyu” by atif, and” ye dooriyan” by love aj kel.
I finally slept right after saying prayers. Opened my eyes to some familiar place. Aware in some corner of my consciousness that I was dreaming. I recognized the place where I was, it was my aunt’s place.. Well, I’m not going to share this dream because I’m not supposed to. It’s a bad one. Anyways as I woke up from this one, frightened, trembling.. I fell into sleep again. I saw me and mama in the next one, we both were boating on the slope of some dam in river Jhelum. I liked this one but I’ve been missing mama since the moment I realized that I saw her in my dream.
…. (I’m wordless) :-X